Ouch… I thought spiritual people don’t fall!!

I have been feeling very irritated this past week. Nevertheless, I have been doing my meditation and cold showers, and anything that could possibly help me get out of this funk.

Mindfulness helps, but I do love the artist’s prayer from the book “Artist’s Way”.

You imagine giving all your irritation and everything that worries you to god/creator/universe and open your heart to everything that you want to receive, and through this, you let go of control and allow the universe to take care of you.

So yesterday, I decided, I really need to do this, because just focusing on my breath was not bringing me peace of mind. I did the visualization and I felt relaxed, and then I went on a bike ride.

…….. and that’s when I fell..

Thankfully nothing bad happened, just a few scratches here and there. I wasn’t trying to let go of the handle bars, or do anything crazy, I wasn’t going fast either, I just reached back with one hand to fix my shirt and lost control and…fell.

So afterwards I thought: I just trusted the universe and I fell on my ass.. great.. this is what happens when you trust god, you fall on your ass, but later I had an epiphany. Well, if you let go of control and trust universe, you have to trust whatever comes and what comes might not always look good to you or be easy, but it’s what you need at the time. Sometimes you need a slap in the face to snap out of your ego!

I don’t know if I fully understand why I needed to fall, but I will tell you this much. If this fall had happened before I was being mindful and working on myself, I would have immediately cried, yes, even as an adult I would cry because that was just an automatic reaction for me, then I would feel embarrassed and scared to ride my bike again. I would definitely never ever try to let go of the handlebars.

But, that’s not what happened.

I got up, a little shocked at first, as to why, even though I am so mindful and spiritual (haha..), this happened, then this nice guy came and helped pick up my basket from the ground and put it back, and I thanked him and jumped back on my bike, and a little while later, tried to let go of the handlebars, just to see if I still had the courage!

I have continued to ride, and will continue. I did have some fears initially. I thought: What if I had fallen in front of a car? What if (when I have a baby someday!) I put my baby on the bike and fall while riding? What would happen to the baby? What if I have an accident? What if someone is texting and is looking down and comes to the bike lane and hits me?

All kinds of worst case scenarios played in my head. I told my husband: what if we had a baby and I had the baby on my bike and we’d fall? He said: If you think like that, you wont be able to go out the door!

What he said really resonated. I could think of a million terrible things that could happen in my mind about anything and everything, and paralyze myself by doing that. Instead, I decided I will do what I want and need to do and if the worst case scenario happens, I will deal with it then, just like how I have dealt with many unimaginable scenarios.

Like loosing a loved one. You can not imagine living without them, until they are gone. Then, despite what you want to believe the first year, you find a way to live without them.

You can never imagine how you will deal with a situation until you are in it. Being in the present moment and fully aware gives you exactly what you need to handle anything that comes in the best way possible.

Treating Yourself Like a Precious Jewel Will Make You Stronger.

“Creating an Empowering Relationship with Time”- Steps To Follow With the Video

I created these steps based on what I have read in “Awaken the Giant Within” by Anthony Robbins and “The Artist’s Way” by Julia Cameron.

1. Break down your disempowering beliefs about time using the steps in the “Time” video. 

-Some disabling beliefs are: “I don’t have enough time to do the things I want.” “Time goes by so fast.”

2. Make a list of everything you want to do, and everything you have to do.

-Make a detailed list that includes all the little things, like taking a shower, getting ready for work, sitting in traffic. Don’t forget to include all of these items, since they do take a portion of your day.

3. Question why you have not done the tasks that you want to and have to do, besides not having time. 

-Is it because you feel like you are not good at it? It takes too long? It’s too hard? Others will make fun of you? Others will think its not important? Others might believe you are taking time away from family? It’s selfish?

4. Write down your beliefs about the tasks you haven’t done do to “lack of time” and break those disempowering beliefs. 

-For example: You want to bake, but you never find the time. Your beliefs might be: “Baking will take time from my family.” “Baking is not important, because its a leisure activity that I am just doing for myself.” “I am not good at baking.” “There is no one to bake for.” “Baking is a waste of time, because I wont get anything out of it (like money).” etc.

-Use the steps in “How our Beliefs Shape US” video to break the disempowering beliefs about the task that you deep down wish you had time to do, or really want to do.

5. Use the 6 steps in the “Perfectionism” video to create the urgency needed for the task you’d like to accomplish. It will help you create new habits. 

6. Make a schedule, without any set times, only categorizing by the frequency each task needs to be done and its importance.

-Look at the task in terms of a month, or two weeks period, instead weekly, or daily.

7. Write a daily equation for the tasks!! (hehe.. i know it sounds mathematical but it’s simpler than it sounds.)

-How many hours do you have to sleep to feel refreshed?

-What time must you wake up, or do you like to wake up, what time do want to go to sleep?

-Write down (realistically) how long all your daily tasks (which you categorized in the last question) take you to complete.

-Now plug in all the other tasks based on their frequency and importance into any spare time left.

8. Focus on your set plan. Remember the way you planned things is to empower you and make you less stressed, so to feel peace and happiness daily you must follow the plan. 

-Unless it’s an emergency, say no to others. It’s ok to spend time for yourself. Love yourself. Make yourself and your desires as important as your family. If you don’t give yourself time and only say “yes” to what others ask of you, you will become resentful.

-Don’t ditch your dance lesson to help a friend move, unless doing this makes you feel more empowered, in tune with your inner truth, and more peaceful in the long run.

-If you are having trouble focusing on a task, change your feelings about that task by changing your beliefs and habits stated in steps 3 and 5.

I will create a sample and post that to show what it really looks like to do this.

Please let me know if you decide to follow these steps, and if it helped you. Leave a comment.  Thanks! 🙂

More On Time, and How to Have a Powerful Relationship With It

I hope that this video helps with the earlier goal of breaking the belief of “not having enough time”. I also provide a few steps that could help you in creating an empowering schedule that includes the things you love, and the things you must do.

Our Beliefs And How They Shape Who We Are!

Who are we? Part of that can be answered by examining out beliefs. Try this exercise to find out! 🙂

Writing is fun too!! :D

Haven’t had a chance to make videos for the past two days, mainly because I haven’t been able to write my magic pages (aka morning pages from The Artist’s Way), but I was reading my entries from 3 years ago, and was filled with pride for having had the idea to create this blog!! hehe.. props to me..

No, but really, I am happy to have this record of what it takes to start a jewelry studio, and the journey I took, and being able to compare my state from a year ago to how I feel now. I highly recommend keeping a journal, or a blog.

I think many times when we are going through challenges in life and we are struggling, it feels like we are the only one. Everyone around seems to be just fine, and, well, the thoughts that come to mind are “what’s wrong with me?” and “why am I the only person that is struggling with this thing?”, but the fact is that others are struggling, you are just not in their heads to know what they are struggling with, so it looks like they are fine with everything.

I made this blog to let anyone who might be going through similar struggles as me to know that s/he is not alone!! I hope it helps to know that.

If you go through life’s motions, without giving it a thought, you might feel that everything is OK, and maybe it is, but if you ever happen to accidentally step back from the constant “doing” and examine it for a second, then you’ll notice that it becomes very hard to be satisfied with “OK”.

Which, maybe randomly, brings me to these questions: What is happiness? What constitutes a happy life?

I know they are cheesy questions that you have probably heard a million times, but have you really thought about them? Have you wondered if you are happy? (You may want to look and see if you have any destructive habits, or external escape routs, like pills, alcohol, over eating, etc., before answering this question!)

If you feel annoyed, uncomfortable, and uneasy by the questions, you are having normal reactions, because the thought of having to change in anyway is scary and uncomfortable. We rather swim in a sewage that we know well, than to step into a clear turquoise blue ocean that we are not familiar with.

If you are ready for clear waters, watch the videos, subscribe, and read on, you might find a way there from here. 🙂


Jealousy, not that any of us get jealous or anything!